“It feels good, doesn’t it? To steal something back.”
Post by Will
TW: Transphobic, Homophobic, and Misogynistic slurs
I’ll admit, I’m not very far into The Book Thief. I’m actually kind of kicking myself for picking such a long book for a club I had intended to be low time commitment. But I just happened to read the back for the first time. I seldom read the back of a book right away, it’s a habit I picked up in sixth grade reading class. I also usually take the dust jacket off a hardcover when I read. But this time I put the jacket back on, backwards. As I was fixing it, I happened to read the back.
“How does it feel, anyway?”
“How does what feel?”
“When you take one of those books?”
At that moment, she chose to keep still. If he wanted an answer, he’d have to come back, and he did. “Well?” he asked, but again, it was the boy who replied, before Liesel could even open her mouth. “It feels good, doesn’t it? To steal something back.”
I’ve been thinking a lot about reclaiming slurs lately. “Bitch” “Queer” Both these are words I used to have a strong gut reaction against. “Queer” in particular. My father used it to talk about “those people” and how wrong and lesser they were. I always thought unfair, even when I myself was pretty trans*- and homophobic. It seemed demeaning to separate someone out for being different. It seemed like it must feel very much like what the bullies at school did to me. I didn’t know why I was Other, I just knew that I was. And I was ashamed. When I started figuring out why I was Other, that “Queer” applied to me, the “he-she” like some of the kids in my class called me applied to me, I was not ashamed. I finally knew why I was Other, that it wasn’t something I’d done, and that I didn’t deserve the torture. But I still didn’t like the word “queer”. I do now. Partly because things have gotten more complicated (I’m polyamorous panromantic asexual and gender-fluid) and just saying I’m queer is easier. But it’s more than that.
I don’t know what Liesel thinks, but the boy is right. It feels good to steal something back. Slurs are more than words. They’re instruments to steal someone’s dignity. When you reclaim a slur that’s been used against you, you’re stealing your dignity back. When I say I’m queer, I’m not just saying that my gender changes and I like girls. I’m saying that this is who I am, and if you have a problem with it, it’s your problem, not mine. It feels good to steal something back.



